Changes...

I have deleted my old blog since this is creating some misunderstandings. I though I was already discreet but maybe not discreet enough. Anyway, I will try to think of some other stuff to put here. Like other peoples' business and life, hahaha. So be honored if you see your life story in my blogs :) . The best thing is I will be putting names now. So Rochie beware, hahaha.

Got this from Sheryll and she is asking if anybody can relate to this, well here it is:

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It's official then. I will never get over you. Ever.
Contributed by ironangel (Edited by alteredbeast)
Sunday, April 23, 2006 @ 12:00:11 AM

I had no intention of reading your profile once again. The last time I did, it hurt so much it drove me to theorize on the art of letting go. I was confident while typing away my sentiments into an essay that ultimately revealed my eagerness to forget you. I had no other choice. Getting over you became an obsession. But I realized now, five minutes after I unwittingly opened your profile that getting over someone could never be a matter of choice. How I have managed to author that letting go theory is beyond me. We can’t choose to forget someone. Time does that for us.

Obviously, time hasn’t decided for me yet. Hurt, every time I hear something about you and her, isn’t exactly new anymore. I have tried countless times to cover it up in letting go theories, or I-don’t-love-you-anymore songs and yet, reality still bites. The toughest thing about it is that the sting lingers long after the wound has supposedly healed.

I thought seven years were enough. Seven years of no significant communication. Why is it that every time I hear something from you –anything, I get this insane feeling of sadness as if everything else in the universe is useless because I don’t have you? Why is it that my heart could not break away from you when everything else has? Why is it that I feel as if time has no intention of giving me my due? I want to forget you. I NEED to forget you. And I cannot wait forever for that.

I will not make this into another essay about finally letting go. This will not be about me getting over you and putting to rest all feelings I have harbored for the longest time. This will not be about sweet lies, but of bitter truths. I was never over you yet. Plain and simple. The hurt I felt moments ago was nothing new because it never really left me. It’s still there painful as ever.

It’s official then. I will never get over you. Ever.
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You see, letting go and moving on is always hard to do (no, this did not came from Gary V's song). Sometimes you know what to do but the question is do you have the strength and courage to do it?

Went to church today and the priest said, "Peace starts from within", I guess this would mean that if you are not at peace with yourself then everything will not be as you like it to be. But how do you attain your peace, in this case (or maybe my case) peace of mind?

Hmm, hate to end this blog with questions so another song for you guys.

Beautiful In My Eyes
You're my piece of mind,
in this crazy world.
Your're everything I've tried to find,
your love is a pearl.

You're my Mona Lisa, you're my rainbow skies,
and my only prayer, is that you realize,
you'll always be beautiful, in my eyes.

The world will turn,
and the seasons will change.
And all the lessons we will learn,
will be beautiful and strange.

We'll have our fill of tears, our share of sighs.
My only prayer, is that you realize.
You'll always be beautiful, in my eyes.

You will always be, beautiful in my eyes.
And the passing years will show,
that you will always grow,
evermore beautiful, in my eyes.

And there are lines upon my face,
from a lifetime of smiles.
But when the time comes to embrace,
for one long last while.

We can laugh about it, how time really flies.
We won't say goodbye, 'cause true-love never dies.
You'll always be beautiful, in my eyes.

You will always be, beautiful in my eyes.
And the passing years will show,
that you will always grow,
evermore beautiful, in my eyes.

The passing years will show,
that you will always grow,
evermore beautiful, in my eyes.

Of All The Things

by Dennis Lambert
Of all the things I've ever done
Finding you will prove to be the most important one
I would never trade the tears
the conversations no one hears
the learning how to walk before we run

Of all the kites I ever flew
Most came tumbling down except the one I sent up with you
I dont wanna change a thing
break the spell or cut the string
when every wish I make is coming true with you

Sometimes I forget to say how much I love you
Purposely I bet cause I'm so busy thinking of you
So in this world of odds and ends
I'd rather have a part of you than all of my so-called friends
You have taught me how to feel
What is false and what is real
of all the things I ever wanna do
I think I'll start and end with loving you

You have taught me how to feel
What is false and what is real
of all the things I ever wanna do
I think I'll start and end with loving you

This song is one of the best. I suggested one of my friend to sing this at his wedding and he did. Someone once said that there is always a song for any situation and the song reminds me that there's always someone who will give you hope and love. Maybe it's just a matter of time...