Sunday, July 30, 2006

Kon Tee Mai Kao Dtaa

by Calorie

mong krai dtor krai tee dern jap meu gieow gan
Watching others walk with hands held intimately together.

hen kao lao nan gor neuk it-chaa nai jai
Seeing them like this would also arouse jealousy within my heart.

tam-mai mai bpen mai mee yaang kao, kit laew man gor sao jai
Why can't I be like them? Thought of it would also made me sad.

mee piang kwaam ngao hai dern got kor tao nan
I had only loneliness to walk and embrace with.

tee nang dtit gan way-laa doo nang keu krai
The one seating next to me when I watch a movie, who's that?

ja ginja dern ja non gor ngao
To eat, to walk, to sleep would also be lonely.

mai mee krai kiang kaang gaai, mai mee krai loie
There's no one to be next to me; nobody at all.

CHORUS:
ja mee krai krai rak kon naa dtaa yaang chan
Will there be someone, someone who'll love one with a face like mine?

tee man tam-ma-daa, mai kao dtaa meuan krai-krai
A face that's ordinary, not as attractive like others.

ja mee krai krai mai, tee ja mong dtae hua jai
Will there be someone, someone that who would rather look at my heart instead?

ja mee mai krai kao jai rak gan
Will there be someone who'll understand and love me?

ja mee gee kon tee kao ja mong yaang nan
How many person will there be, that'll look at me that way?

ja mee sak wan baang mai tee fan bpen jing
Will there be a day that my dream would become true?

ja mee gee kon tee kao ja rap tee chan bpen daai took sing
How many person will there be that'll accept everything about me as I am?

mee piang kwaam ngao hai dern got kor tao nan
I had only loneliness to walk and embrace with.

tee nang dtit gan way-laa doo nang keu krai
The one seating next to me when I watch a movie, who's that?

ja ginja dern ja non gor ngao
To eat, to walk, to sleep would also be lonely.

mai mee krai kiang kaang gaai, mai mee krai loie
There's no one to be next to me; nobody at all.

Repeat CHORUS

mong hen kwaam sam-kan jap meu got chan duay kwaam dtem jai
Seeing the vital issues, to hold my hand, and embrace me with willingness.

ja yom hai took took sing tee dtua chan mee
I'll give everything that I have,

ja mai tam hai kao pit wang loie sak krang
Will not let her be disappointed then, not even once.

Repeat CHORUS 2X

Sunday, July 16, 2006

Where is home?

People coming from different walks of life would have different views on this, some would say home is where you were born, home is where you want to grow old, everywhere is home, and home is where your loved ones are. The last one is just partially true.

Just to make a clarification a house is not a home. It also does not mean that if your family members are there then it is home or it's because you are too attached to a place then it is home. Home is a place where you can find peace of mind, safety and for others, a sort of comfort zone. But is this really what it is?

I have been out of the country for almost two years now, first few days I was away, I almost gave up and went back home (this is because of comfort zone, family and the one I love). But there are some things that you have to do in order to know how far you can really go. If I quit once then I can always tell myself that I did it before and I can do it again but there will always be a thought that will haunt you, what if I did not quit? Also, remember by doing this there might be some consequences that might come along. I was able to overcome homesickness, partially, but in a very hard way. Sometimes you are deceived by the feeling of being happy since there are always friends and people around you. You tend to divert yourself to them so you can just ride with them and take away the lonely feeling. But reality is, at the end of the day you still feel lonely and empty. Worse thing that can happen to you is loosing a love one along the way, part of the consequence, you will not be able to imagine how hard it is just to cope on a daily basis. Having experience this, it will make you a stronger and better person. Things that you take for granted or not so important will suddenly be what you are living for. I can say that I matured a lot, personally and professionally, over this period of time and I am really thankful that I was given the opportunity but always remember that there is no such thing as a perfect life. Sometimes faith will just play with you and suddenly you will feel that you are the lowest of what you are. When this time comes you always, always have to look deep and know where home is.

Given that, for me home is where your heart belongs or who is inside your heart giving you strength to continue and your sense of security, it really doesn't matter where you are as long as you are with the one you love and you have him or her or them in your heart. Not being a hypocrite, yes, I miss home but as I said what is home without the one who gives you the feeling of fulfilment and sense of security?

People would aks me if I miss home, a year ago I would always say yes but now I do not even know where home is... I guess this is another chapter of my life that I have to find and write. Hopefully, one of these days, I will be writing good, happy and sensible things which I can share with everyone reading this and dedicte them to the one I truly love.

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Home
by Michael Buble

Another summer day
has come and gone away
In Paris or Rome...
but I wanna go home...
uhm Home

May be surrounded by
a million people I
still feel all alone
just wanna go home
I miss you, you know

And I've been keeping all the letters
that I wrote to you,
Each one a line or two
I'm fine baby, how are you?

I would send them but I know that it's just not enough
My words were cold and flat
And you deserve more than that

Another aeroplane, another sunny place,
I'm lucky I know
but I wanna go home
I got to go home

Let me go home
I'm just too far from where you are
I wanna come home

And I feel just like I'm living
someone else's life
It's like I just stepped outside
when everything was going right

And I know just why you could not come along with me
This was not your dreambut you always believed in me...

Another winter day
Has come and gone away
in either Paris or Rome
and I wanna go home
Let me go home

And I'm surrounded by
A million people I
still feel alone
Let me go home
I miss you , you know

Let me go home
I've had my run
baby I'm done
I gotta go home

Let me go home
it'll all be alright
I'll be home tonight
I'm coming back home"

Wednesday, July 12, 2006

Sana

by Ogie Alcasid

Eto nanaman, nakatapak sa daan
Naghihintay ng jeep, patungo ay di alam
Ngayong wala ka na sinta, wala nang halaga
Ako ay mapadpad kahit saan

O, heto nanaman pagala gala lang
Mukha mo'y hinahanap, sa bawat paglakbay
Kung bakit ba ang nais mo'y di ko pinagbigyan
Di sana ay kasama ka pa sa daan

Chorus:

Sana'y magkasabay sa paglakbay, sana
Landas mo at landas ko'y di na nagkahiwalay
Isa lang ang ating daan, isa rin ang patutunguhan, ohh
Kapag ang puso ang siyang pinag bigyan

O, eto nanaman palaboy laboy lang
Nakatungtong sa bus, patungo ay di alam
Kung bakit ba ang nais mo'y di ko pinagbigyan
Di sana ay kasama ka pa sa daan

Repeat Chorus:

Isa lang ang ating daan, isa rin ang patutunguhan, ohh
Kapag ang puso ang siyang pinag bigyan

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This is one of those day that I wish I just kept my mouth shut. I blew it and blew it really big this time. I managed to loose someone who is really important to me, ok I admit it, whom I really love. Well I will just face it I really don't know what is happening to me and the worse is I do not even know what I want to happen... I'm sorry, you know who you are, really really sorry for what I said. I know sorry will not be enough but I will just accept whatever decision and what you want to do with it. Just remember that I will always be here for you...

You

by Basil Valdez

You give me hope,
The strength, the will to keep on;
No one else can make me feel this way
And only you
Can bring out all the best I can do;
I believe you turn the tide
And make me feel real good inside.

You pushed me up
When I'm about to give up;
You're on my side when no one seems to listen
And if you go,
You know the tears can't help but show
You'll break this heart and tear it apart;
Then suddenly the madness starts

CHORUS:
It's your smile,
Your face, your lips that I miss,
Those sweet little eyes that stare at me
And make me say,
I'm with you through all the way.

'Cause it's you
Who fills the emptiness in me;
It changes ev'rything, you see,
When I know I've got you with me

You pushed me up
When I'm about to give up;
You're on my side when no one seems to listen
And if you go,
You know the tears can't help but show
You'll break this heart and tear it apart;
Then suddenly the madness starts

CHORUS:
It's your smile,
Your face, your lips that I miss,
Those sweet little eyes that stare at me
And make me say,
I'm with you through all the way.

'Cause it's you
Who fills the emptiness in me;
It changes ev'rything, you see,
When I know I've got you with me.

It's your smile,
Your face, your lips that I miss,
Those sweet little eyes that stare at me
And make me say,
I'm with you through all the way.

'Cause it's you
Who fills the emptiness in me;
It changes ev'rything, you see,
When I know I've got you with me.

Desert Safari (July 7 and 8, 2006)

Finally an out of town trip was organized last weekend. So the group decided to take a Desert Safari overnight package. The package includes dune bashing, dinner buffet and overnight stay at the desert camp. Additional freebies are henna painting/tatoo, "all you can" shisha, "all you can" water and softdrinks and belly dancing.

Riding our reinforced 4 X 4 going to the sand dunes. We drove around 2 hours going to Margham Area, near La Habab.

The regular team members: (L to R) Peng, Tik, Suda, JCo, Thorsten and Sun Jun. Behind us are sand dunes and in front of is the cam and off course, more sand. We stopped for a few minutes to get photos or what i call the last photo, who knows what will happen during our dune bashing.

You can see the 4 X 4 are like ants going up the ant hill.


Our ant line going through the sand dunes and doing dune bashing. Dune bashing is basically surfing, sliding along, going up and donw on almost 60 degrees and jumping over sand dunes. Cool huh, the expereince is quite different. Here the drivers skills really come into place. They have to mix speed and correct mix of engine power to make the ride as exciting as possible. Like roller coaster, only using a 4 X 4.

We stopped by a place to do sand borading, it is like snow boarding but now we use sand. Presenting our cool Project Manager, Thorsten, with his I don't know hop move.

Jignesh, raising the sand board and celebrating that he made it out after trying sand boarding.

After sand boarding our bashing continues.

Embracing life, whatever is left of it. Sorry I have to be sentimental again. Looking at the sunset and it was very magnificent. I just wanted to embrace the time I wasted and shout someones name until she hears me.

This is what I am seeing and I wanted to share it with you.

The buggy mens. Ohh, the girl standing behind Jignesh is the reception and also responsible for renting out the dune buggys.

Camel, up close and personal.

Camel ride.

Our dessert camp, this is where we will be spending our night.

At the "Camel" stop, waiting for our ride.

Funny poses from the group, Sun Jun with his "Thuk Tong Na Krap" pose.

Shisha anyone. I am not fond of this so when I look at this picture I would miss bowling.

Shiek Sun Jun, the next Shiek of DIC Bldg. 6. There are some Kandura for you to wear so you can take photos like a local.

Guess who? Is she one of us?

Guess who again with Shiek Peng. Shiek Sun Jun looks more like a Shiek.

Shiek Jco with Guess who, I don't look like a shiek actually.

Shiek Sun Jun and shit JCo with the "Thuk Tong Na Krap" pose.

Finally, she revealed herself. It was Suda all the while, she looked familiar to me but can't reall tell until she showed her face.

Shiek Tik and Arabian girl Suda. Did you notice Shiek Tik's henna painting/tatoo, whatever it is called?

Arabian girl Pond's own henna painting/tatoo.

Shisha for Sun Jun.

Shisha buddies Thorsten, Jignesh and a new found member. I think Thorsten is stoned already.

After the Arabian Girl theme, Suda went for the Cleopatra pose with the persian cat who by the way is our lookout for the night.

Suda's scorpion henna.

Finally, dinner time. The food was good. It was all you can eat lebanese food, in short grilled stuff, grilled chicken, shiek kebabs and mutton. Vegetable salad, rice, beans were also served. The dessert was also nice, a variety of fruits and custard. Hmmm, what happened to Sun Jun? I can only describe this as eat till you drop.

Woohoo, belly dancing time. Immediately after dinner belly dancing started. It was not what i expected really i guess it is not the authentic one. This was also the girl who was at the reception. This is the best sample of multi-tasking.

Belly dancing Thorsten and ohhh, Sun Jun's tummy dancing as well.

After dinner and belly dancing, everybody left. Apparently, it was only us who were left for overnight.

Preparing our sleeping bags for the night. We were planning to do star gazing but unfortunately it was very cloudy.

Different styles of sleeping in desert.

More shisha.



After a certain time they close the generator and just provided us lamps. Since I was not able to sleep so I decided to take some night shots and play with my cam.

Some stars around 2 AM. Still wide awake and taking photos.


Break of dawn while everybody was sleeping, I took some shots.


I took a morning walk and this is what I saw, basically all sand. What do you expect, I'm in a desert.

Where our food was barbequed. This was my last shot and this trip was one of few cases where I used up my two batteries.

We still have some funny moments after this and it was in Peng and Suda's cam. I will try to get them and post them here. So the trip ended with them serving us breakfast at camp and then driving us back to our hotel. It was a really nice and worth while experience. Personally, I would recommend this to my friends who will be coming here to Dubai for a visit. But I think day package is enough there isn't anything to do for overnight unless you went there with close friends who you can chat with for the whole night.

Do you know who she is?

Something happened the next day, suddenly the world turned around. I think the sun dried up everything and people tends to get confused.

Almost Over You

by Janno Gibbs

I saw an old friend of ours today
She asked about you
I didn't quite know what to say
Heard you've been making
The rounds 'round here
While I've been trying to make tears disappear

Now I'm almost over you
I've almost shook these blues
So when you come back around
After painting the town
You'll see I'm almost over you

Your such a sly one
With your cold cold heart
Maybe leaving can ease it
But it tore me apart
Time heals all wounds they say
And I should know
Coz it seems like forever
But I'm letting you go

Now I'm almost over you
I've almost shook these blues
So when you come back around
After painting the town
You'll see I'm almost over you

I can't forgive you and sooner forget
All my shattered dreams
Although you left me with nothing to show
All my miseries

Now I'm almost over you
I've almost shook these blues
So when you come back around
After painting the town
You'll see I'm almost over you

When you come back around
After painting the town
You'll see I'm almost over you

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"I would rather see you happy, even if it means that I will be loosing you, rather than keep you in misery. I wish and pray that the next person who will come to your life will love you much more as I do and will not hurt you as much as I did." Bottom line is, if you really love someone you would sacrifice your own happiness just to see them happy and this is pretty much what it is anyway. This line is for a special someone and wherever you are, I hope that you are happy and safe.

My Fair Share

by Martin Nievera and Ogie Alcasid

Lost, lost as a child's first thought
I must have arms to hold me
Lost without love and care
I must have my fair share

Fair, fair is a changing word
But fair is an honored promise
Justice if you're still there
I will have my fair share

Justice is a lady
Lay me down with justice in a long white gown
With a breath of love, we can share
Share, sleep with me if you dare
Celebrate my fair share

Fair, fair is a changing word
But fair is an honored promise
Justice if you're still there
I will have my fair share

Justice is a lady
Lay me down with justice in a long white gown
With a breath of love, we can share
Share, sleep with me if you dare
Celebrate my fair share.